“Energy can neither be created nor be destroyed, it can only be converted from one form to another”.
- Albert Einstein
Have you ever noticed this…If you have paid enough attention..
Whatever is around you and whatever is inside you is all happening by itself.
Didn't get it?
From your subjective point…
These people that are walking on the streets, they all are walking by themselves.
Or the ones who are driving cars and bikes are driving by themselves.
These trees that are naturally growing are growing all by themselves.
These animals outside on streets or in gardens or jungles they're doing whatever they’re doing all by themselves.
The sun is happening by itself. The Moon is happening by itself.
The galaxies, nebulas, black holes, white holes and everything is all happening by itself.
The Water, Earth, Air, Fire and Heat and these interactions between them all happening by itself.
These Gazillion atoms and molecules that exist around us.. all interacting by themselves.
Sound, Light and Matter and countless other frequencies and states are all happening by themselves.
The cells in your body are all doing their job themselves.
Blood is flowing in the body all by itself.
Your tissues are growing and taking care of themselves.
Your digestive system, respiratory, lymphatic, muscular, nervous system all take care and maintain all by themselves.
Your eyes, ears, nose, tongue, and body sensations and all 5 senses are happily running themselves.
Your Breathing is happening all by itself.
Your brain is also working well I hope!
When everything necessary is happening all by itself, where the hell are you in this game?
And the more important question is – What Are You?
But first let's talk about this Primordial Life Force.
Because she’s the one that's doing all those things by itself. The Energy that we say is that.
In Living Beings it's on by itself inside them. Even outside too.
But objectively you have to use your brain to convert it from one form to another for your own use.
Like Fire into Steam using water. Or Water into Electricity and so on.
Cause they call it . . . “Yeah! Science B*tch!”(*in Jesse Pinkman's voice)
So in terms of Yoga and Spirituality, it's called “SHAKTI”.. meaning energy or The Primordial Energy.
And in Humans or Living Creatures we call it the Primordial Life Force.
Right from your birth it has kept it alive and maintained you.
Well, at first when you were just a baby all you did was “Oooooooo Waaaah Oooooo Waaaah!”
But then as your grew little more, your energy and body got accustomed to surroundings you started crawling all over the place.
Now you just can't contain your excitement can you?
She is just growing in you.
She makes you laugh, make you cry, makes you go crazy in awe, she makes you hungry for milk and now she even makes you shit like crazy…that too in middle of the night.
As of now she's making you see, hear, smell, taste, and sense your body.
She’s making you respond in every way possible.
A little older and you’re doing your best to stand. A little more, and now you’re running all over the place.
Hey, even mama’s having a hard time catching you.
Now she's entering another realm. Now she can speak. A little maybe, but she can nonetheless.
“Mama, Papa” I have no idea what words she will speak through you.
A little older and now she is talking non stop through you.
Expression through words has begun finally.
Asking questions, responding and all that.
Slowly there's a new player also coming into this play.
He has been hiding behind the scenes this whole time, but now he's not shy to show his face – The Mind.
Slowly and sneakily Mind is stacking everything that you see in the form of memories in your brain.
Hey! You're growing a little more and now you ended up in Kindergarten.
All these melodious songs and poems, these photos of fruits, animals and toys which require a little effort on your part.
Slowly ‘Relationship and Understanding’ is coming into play. Now the connection between a Sound and its Physical Shape and Size is being formed.
And to get the flow going there's melodies and what not, the meaning may not still get in head but the Rhythm sticks.
You're now in 5th Grade, you kind of understand the world a little bit. You know exactly what's meant for what isn't.
And yes there are some Secrets that are reserved for grown-ups that they don't want you to know. Because anyway soon you’re going to find out ;D
Slowly you know the Social Mechanics at play.
Who's the Hero and Attention Getter of the class, who is the laid back, who’s the dumb, who’s a bully and the bitch and who’s going to be a Womanizer or Men-nizer (well I don't know for sure if there's such a word)
3 years more down the line…Puberty has hit you.
Now the world looks a little different. Heart’s beating faster. Love’s in the air. And Hormones are all over the place.
Someone’s childhood has gone good, someone’s ok-ok and some are in deep traumas because of parents or other situations.
You see the social hierarchy changing based on gender.
Everyone is either drowned in love, sex, anxiety, depression or loneliness. And those who look happy are either drowned in Cigarettes, Drugs or Alcohol.
You could now clearly see how people are Climbing the Social Ladder in College/University or at Job (depending where you end up) and how they're preparing for the corporate ladder too. Some are using Wings to fly and some are spreading you-know-what to fly.
And the remaining ones who are totally sober are just withstanding the harsh reality of life. Life’s hitting them but they still have the courage to go on.
The Primordial Life Force, the Energy, which is now fully active is now finding expression in all forms…
The whole spectrum of EMOTIONS – from Supreme Happiness, Joy, Butterflies in Stomach to severe Anxiety, Depression, Stress, and Fears and Insecurities consuming you from inside.
PHYSICALLY – primarily through Sex and desires and lust. You look outside your car window and realize someone’s body count is getting as high as Mount Everest because that's the only thing they know as of now.
…While others are expressing themselves using Intense Activity, Gym, Sports, Adventures, Arts, Music and Creativity or Military… or for some they have become couch potatoes and satiating through Food only.
Food (Money) and Sex remains the Primary Drive of the body of all species.
MENTALLY – through this intense stream of thoughts Non-Stop going back and forth, either in Memories or in Imagination. Or any Business Endeavors and Ambitions. Some have entered the career fields where intense Logic and Understanding is required because their mind lives to solve complex problem.
No matter what, she’s doing her best to the highest possible potential and finding full expression from your side.
But from the other side the The Grounding Force of Life is also as strong as your desires and it's giving you a very tough competition.
It ain't backing off so easily. It never did for anyone till now.
Some are getting crushed and backing off with their necks down.
Some are getting back up with new ways and plans to tackle.
Some are still figuring out what the hell is going on.
Some got married and ended up with wrong people that were too toxic with different beliefs who used sex to tempt and control them and when they broke off with them ended up progressive worse because of being tempted by another one who was exactly like the previous one.
Some have become so broken and beaten and hit the lowest point in their life and are going to medical treatment for PTSD and ADHD with mood stabilizers in the bloodstream.
They went into a full blown cycle of mania and depression and lost their job and have strained relationships with their spouses. And now want to commit suicide but somehow stop themselves. But the suffering is too much to bear.
Some lost jobs because of office politics, AI, industry layoffs and now couldn't sleep at night as they have a huge home mortgage to pay and kids and family to feed. The only emotions they're experiencing is anger and fear and it is exhausting.
Deep down they secretly wish to go back to graduate school, get a PhD and become a professor but the next minute their mind says to run away to a tropical island and become a waiter. They can't keep their mind on a single thing, even if they do, their mind just takes off, it's going in a vicious circle.
If they go to an interview their anxiety takes over and palms and hands become sweaty.
Some have lost money in business and in their self-employed careers. For them life has become totally meaningless, bleak and they think the only way to remain happy is to be ambitionless. They no longer strive to explore anything and wallow in self-pity and choose to be a victim in every aspect of life.
Some are doing good and have everything they want - money, spouse, kids, career but feel totally hollow and empty inside.
You better swallow this red pill because no matter what you're doing. No matter what option you choose. Your thirst is not going to be satisfied ever.
Right now everything people do is because there's a desire inside and the only way to quench it is to do something that satisfies it.
But ask yourself why the thirst in the first place? Why did you feel incomplete from the start?
Because a big black hole got created inside you, and a desire got created to do something that somehow you think fills that hole.
Again after some time a new hole or the same hole appears, again a new desire, again the action to satisfy the desire.
But believe me, over 99% of the people in the world end up on deathbed but the Ultimate Quenching of Thirst never happens when they're alive.
They may use it to create something in this World that may help them in terms of career or business or build something for the wellbeing of people. But the Thirst is never quenched.
They just don't know what it is.
Because if the Quenching of that Eternal Thirst would have happened, all those Jealousy, Stress, Fear, Tension, Anxiety, Depression would never have crushed them down.
Instead they would have purposely got into extreme situations just to feel the adrenaline and the depth of life, and again come back out of it, because they could come out without scratch on them, as their normal state would have been total bliss and ecstasy beyond anything that they would have experienced in all lifetimes combined.
The thing is she – The Primordial Life Force will not stop troubling you until she meets ‘Him’.
She will use You as an agent, until she meets and unites with Him!
And unless she does, she will try to express through you and you will keeping falling from one emotional pit to another pit in life, but nothing will change… because again and again when she increases her intensity and goes into your mind, you will be fooled into thinking that whatever your body and mind is saying to you is the only thing that you need in life.
This moment your desire, mind, body and emotion will say one thing and the next moment something they will say something different and if you follow it, you will be trapped successfully in one big loop, going in circles with no hopes of escape.
To escape a loop my friend, you need to go in a straight line not in circles.
Unless you make her go straight to meet him, you will be used as an agent just like any other human is being used.
They think it's them who's running the show but look carefully, deep down it's a shit show and even know they don't know who’s running it. And they don't have the guts to accept it.
But who's this mysterious “Him” that you keep talking about?
From a yogic and spiritual perspective this Universe is a combination of 2 Forces - Unlimited Energy and Total Emptiness.
So by ‘Him’ I am referring to that…
In Yoga and Spirituality we call this element as SHIVA.
Your Shakti wants to meet Shiva. That's the only reason you keep taking births.
Remember that Switch of Ecstasy I told you about in the previous part?
Yes, that Switch when you turn it ON, you get drowned in extreme bliss and ecstasy where all the scratches and wounds just wash away.
It's so goddamn efficient that even the worst emotion you’re currently experiencing in life washes off when you turn it ON.
Strictly speaking from Experience, in terms of Yoga and Spirituality, the ancient sages of India call it “Anandamaya Kosha”.
Anandamaya Kosha means the Bliss Body or Ecstatic body. There are a total 5 Bodies a Human Being has. Physical Body is just one body.
Once you learn to access it consciously no matter what's going on in your life in terms of an outsider situation, let me tell you this – Existentially (considering all your previous lives and this) you have got a Safety Net.
This is the Universe's or Nature's gift to you that somehow you saw through the veil of Illusions that your own Body, Mind and Emotions portrayed to you and instead of getting trapped in them..
…Which btw was anyway going to end in vain as one day your Body which is Physical will Die as all physical things end…
…You went in search of something that is beyond the Physical and now you found it.
“But how to do it!!?? How Should I Get Access to this Ecstasy? Because I tried everything – Sex, Money, Love, Alcohol, Drugs…Nothing could give me Ultimate Satisfaction, it always left me empty. And I am already getting hit by life from all sides! It's almost becoming unbearable!”.
Well…